as i wake up...drink my cup of coffee and uncurl myself into abba's pretense i hear the the muffled whirring of life outside my window tempting me to join while my thoughts struggle to collect themselves and settle down into being present with God as i am dating my daily journal entry may 7, 2014 there has been a shift on my insides i am not the same..something has happened..i am changing. i can feel it i am trying to put my finger on it i am starting a new beth moore study .. daughters of the day so i'm reading through the lesson and this paragraph STOP girl!! whoa... tidbit about me: i am a highlighter and underliner girl..i write all over my books and my bible this is what beth said this is where we begin. your circumstances are not coincidental in your journey. God's timing is impeccable. we have before us real words for real crisis, real medical diagnosis, real afflictions, real relationships, real doubts, real concerns, and real fears. REAL .. a word i fight hard for in days when everything is fake and photoshopped..down to the very food we eat REAL is a word i want to be..you too? i am sure it is more than just this..it is God's perfect timing..people and places to be in the right time..a surrendered heart..a readiness to be all in i had to take back my life dissect it to get to the core of my beliefs that had me in the rut of life's road from which i could not get myself out my age old questions has always been searching for someone to pattern my life after i look high and low and under every nook and cranny another question i have always asked is God is HOW do i DO bible verses so that they change me? i have sat in churchs a bazillion times and wept over awesome sermons preached by charismatic preachers and i have also been bored out of my brain wishing it would hurry and be over i've said before i have read every self help book known to man i have tons of head knowledge bottom line we must understand HOW to apply God's word to be changed..for it to make sense and i can't tell you how many times God and i have talked about this all of this and more is why we need to understand how the change happens since i didn't have it modeled before me growing up i have been fighting tooth and nail for it t being the avid people watcher that i am...watching for someone to show me how its done he last 15 or so years since i wasn't in a church that taught it i set out on my own journey to find it aha moment: now i understand that my resident teacher...the holy spirit .. has been teaching me and i didn't even realize it until last weekend!! john 14:26 immediately came to mind .. the one where jesus said the Holy Spirit..whom my Father will send in my name, will teach you everything, and remind you of all that i have said to you! if i'd had only known that is what was happening a decade ago....ha! i humbly share my story with all the realness i can i will teach only what God has taught me/teaching me...yes i am still very much a student wise in some ways...a beginner in so many others being open has been a big game changer for me it rides alongside changing the way i think oprah said it this way and i wrote it down in my journal with these three words- i said this is me! the opening myself up into that which awaits me based on everything else that has brought me to this point. -oprah i now have a few weapons under my belt to get me from point A to point B on my treasure map of my story i am persuaded now more than ever that changes really are from the inside out our thinking or what we believe is in the driver's seat of our life that is where we need to begin our work in our mind this is where i have noticed the biggest changes..they happened inside me first and that has begun changing me on the inside thankfulness surrender trust these three words are like three strands that are interconnected and for me were and are the rope that holds me tight on this exodus road i will share romans 12:2
Place Your Life Before God
12 1-2 So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.
isn't that awesome!!? so much to unravel in my story for it to begin making sense but i am going to plug away at it it is therapeutic for me so lets begin by lifting our hearts and hands high..placing our lives before God as we begin today's journey thank you again lissa for all the beautiful images....muah! xoxo