The place where God calls you is the place where your deep gladness and the world's deep hunger meet. --Frederick Buechner
when we live in the arena of life we will have the balcony staring at us. this can be painful but the cost NOT TO is to great. there is a deep calling going out to the hearts of God's people..to share love..to share light to love right where people are with no strings..God will do what He needs to do when we step out of the shadows and SHINE. Let you light shine...answer the call
i think there are two LIGHTS. an inner light and an outer LIGHT
every one's story is unique. some things are very similar and some things are not at all
regardless - we are all given a light that we can either hide or share
some are birthed with a glow around them people are attracted to the them like moths to a flame it is natural and easy they love to be seen. noticed some are birthed with a shrug it doesn't bother them one way or the other they don't see what all the fuss is about do what you gotta do
then there are those like me. those birthed into shadows much like a vampire they shrink to cover the light i have been shadow living as long as i can remember
i call these OUTER lights. it is from those looking on...those in the balcony if you will
this other light is the light we have inside. i liken this light to the light in this verse let your light so shine before men that they see your good works and glorify God who is in heaven
it is an INNER light we all have this light and when we are birthed into the light of human eyes we have to decide what to do with our light
as we grow life circumstances, learned behavior..maybe trauma whatever shapes this light..often not in a good way and we accept this as normal and we grow and grow until we are grown and we believe we are stuck like this. we are not
we see the difference between ourselves and others why is it so hard for me to share my light? he doesn't seem to mind at all. she does that so effortlessly i don't like the way it feels when i let my light shine people react - or they give me compliments and tell me that made a difference. i feel weird when i do like i did something wrong and others would say...why do you do that all of the time? why do you talk about God like that..so on and so forth ( you can insert your own scenarios here )
Walk in Glory - Mindy McCready i went through a counseling session over 10 years ago and they gave each of us a song--this was mine
i vividly remember deep soul sobs when i heard it. how did they know..how could they? God knew. He knows me inside and out. He knows you too.
i am comfortable in shadows. i live there. did you know being vulnerable is painful? i mean like you can feel it?
i swear i was born in shadow but who knows...lol!
Man is broken He lives by mending The grace of God is the glue
the thing with this light -it can be broken...at least in me. it has been a slow process to be where i am today ...painful at times and i have just recently begun stepping out of the shadows and risking being vulnerable -- being seen..letting my light shine i am also seeing that it is infectious - it causes others to want to find and shine their LIGHTS too! cool huh?
gives permission for others to let their lights shine too
our stories...while all so unique there is only ONE of YOUR story. one and i believe with my whole heart that this light we are given.. if we re-connect with it we will have so much more JOY in our day and it doesn't stop there
we are so fragile at first..our skin become like leather from being in the light for a long long time
so be kind to yourself. i am daily aware of how i am talking to myself and you know what? i am learning that the kinder i am to ME the kinder i find myself being to others!!
IT IS TRUE..did you already know that?
blogging=really letting you peek into my heart..and beginning an online business has really been a tedious heart work for me the possibility of failing is HUGE and rejection? it is like letting others see me naked...i wanna run back to the shadows and say HECK with this, this is to hard. i almost did at one point..ok more than one
but i didn't..i didn't QUIT
i kept steppin out of the shadows..i think it was a combination of mid life crisis and aries stubborness i don't know;) Abba keeps reminding me that it is NOT MY STORY...NOT my LIGHT. when i LET GO and risk being seen and step out.. i do so INTO HIS LIGHT..it just bounces off of me out into the atmospehere i have begun to CONNECT with other light lovers...just had to say that!
as you know i am reading daring greatly and it has just shed even more light on my path. i am almost done with it
did you know you have a light too? you don't have to wait for anyone to give you permission to step out of the shadows you know?
i think i was told that long before i ever really heard it well - today i am telling YOU...the shadows are no place for YOU.
YOU have something to share with others. something given to you when you were born it is meant to be seen - YES it is painful...especially at first but the more you connect with whatever THAT is i belive that when we don't share out gift..our light we miss something..and so do others
the more and more JOY and HAPPY and FUN and GRATEFULness with invade your heart..your life everywhere.
you will WAKE up in the morning with more peace. it doesn't mean everything becomes easy..quite the contrary however - life takes on a purpose..you have a hunger for it again. i want that for YOU! i do.
if there is ONE thing i want you to know from my HEART to YOURS is this..
find your LIGHT - LET IT SHINE! and then teach your children to do the same spend time this week asking what is it that you were meant to do...what were you given that you need to re-connect with
and then come on out of the shadows ..YOU KNOW who you are come on out in the SUNshine baby...let's SHINE together shall we?
i am --- peeking around the shadow corner and sticking my toes out in the light a wee bit more these days i am ready to kick some dust up off the ground what about you...i am all ears
now to announce monday's The Homemade Home book giveaway winner....
congratualtions to ERICA!
"I would love to go back to picking strawberries with my grandma at her farm house. I can feel the sun on my back, see her wrinkled and tanned hands, and taste those sweet berries."
Shoot me an email at email@example.com and and let me know your address so we can have the book shipped to you right away! a deep thank you to everyone who took the time to share a past time you would like to see come back. there was such a common threat woven that i couldn't help but be saddened. they were beautiful.