Day 16 of 72 : returning to my first love

sometimes healing is inside.  where the human eye cannot see.  much time can go by..years in fact where we lose hope and begin to be wooed by the lies designed to keep bound and far from the freedom we are offered.  That you were made this way and nothing will ever change and where is this power that You speak about?  If I'm made to live this life in freedom and power where is it because I want it..I spoke some weeks ago.  You have lovingly allowed me to carry all of this around until I couldn't do it in my strength or anyone else's... any longer.

After several years away from You after being so close and I wanted to come home and you spoke from your Word to me in Revelation 2:4 that I left my first love. because I didn't know where to start...and it was with these words that my path began to turn around.  I didn't know it at the time...I didn't feel it I just began to put You back into my life.  And with much ups and downs..here I am almost 3 years later and time is not relevant to Him.  Am I making progress or am I just stuck here treading I ask?  The lie is that I really do not having any power..it is His power I am learning to reach for..filling my empty places with His bright blue sky kinda power.

I am not a victim and I refuse to be stuck.  I am making progress.  How do I know?  I have looked back and am seeing inside healing.  The way I am living life everyday is different.  Not to say I don't have deep valley's of despair on this journey but He has given my new eyes to see differently..to see myself differently which means I respond differetly.   I think the lapse in time is inside healing time because I could not..can not do what is ahead if my insides weren't able to walk the next leg of the journey. Taking a deeup breath... I am jumping because I trust the One who is catching me.  There I said it.  No turning back.  And I am awe..it is to marvelous how I am standing still and seeing with my new eyes..how He is moving things.  I bow my heart and my knee to the One who sees all...and who sees me and loves me completely.

He won't let me or you forget our way home

 

he writes my story into His song..my life for the glory of God~ ( Christa Wells )

 

 

 

how has He been writing your story?
have you been healed inside and lived it on the outside?

 

p.s. One big thing He is healing is the way I view myself that translates into the way I dress.  I have retired my logo t shirts from AE, Abercrombie and such.  Nikki tells me I cannot shop in little girl stores anymore.  And I happily agree.  I am ready to dress like a woman and I couldn't be more excited.  Do I feel uncomfortable...absolutely!  am I going to do it anyway?  Absolutely:)