Our dreams become real by building
God has given me a path to follow...He has spoken through His Word to my heart but lately... I'm in a funk. Really?
I'll let you in on something. I am inclined to think my "funk" is lack of doing what He has already shown me.
I think the " funk " is me not picking up and building!
I am still up on the hill looking over the dream. Now is the time to prayerfully dissect all He has spoken to me and do it. I pray to share all of these ways as I do them ... with you. God has been showing me my life through a wide angle lens. I put the camera to my eye...squint...and turn the lens. I see more detail now.
the dream becomes something I want...
You see - I've only lived with half a heart. I've lived 16 years in a relationship that has literally made me sick and almost crazy. There have been many rocks overturned in attempts to mend things. You can't fix what doesn't want to be fixed so what is one to do?
I've been sitting and looking at this question for at least 10 years.
Here...today...pen meets the paper. Where it starts. The journaling .
If I can allow change in circumstances that aren't what one would dream...that when one's WHOLEHEART is changed it will change everything else.
I haven't lived what I've loved. For many reasons but one reason that immediately comes to mind is that I didn't KNOW what I loved and I didn't love myself so I didn't set boundaries for anyone else to treat me well.
God keeps bringing me back to my dreams. Dreams I had as a child. Things that give me pleasure .. bring me contentment.
One REAL SIMPLE thing I did this weekend from reading Lissa's post was to intentionally buy fresh flowers for my home. I've always enjoyed flowers but could never bring myself to spend the money on something that dies. Silly right? for me I'm learning that is wrong. This simple money that was spent gave me immense joy just looking at them...with gratitude at our Creator for making something so exquisite it brought praise to my lips.
I hope you will humbly allow me to share what is to come. First and foremost this is for me. Secondly- for others. I need to get all of this out. Sort through. Let go of what isn't beneficial to me and to the children. I don't have the big picture...at all. But it is time. I am ready to stick around this story awhile. Explore it with the zoom lens...close up. Taking the tangible things He is teaching me and put them into my life. See what it would look like for a woman to live wholehearted and how that would infuse change in life as she knows it.
Have you ever been in a place..a funk... that could be traced back to not doing what God has told you to do?
beginning the re-write
******** I'm still working on a big project that I am just so excited about. I am in the middle of a flair which has caused me to slow down even more so soon...soon.
This Wenesday we will have Lissa from Humble Pie speaking words of life to us, a Linkup and something little I've been working on that I will be offering as a giveaway. So - please come and enjoy some wrapped in love words from Lissa and join in our Word women by linking up a post that would encourage our journey together AND get ready for a fun giveaway...would you?:)
******** You all inspire me in so many ways. Getting out of a life long rut is so much easier to grasp when you have others who are genuine hearts who share, encourage..to just journey with you. thankyou...I often am so overwhelmed by your words that I wish I could visit each one of you everyday and hug you and we could visit over coffee for hours on end.
Linking up with Graceful for Hear it on Sunday. Use it on Monday