a tower...lie bricks & God breathed words & WWW giveaway

As I sit there..alone..the light streaming in from the holes in this tower mortared with pain lies I've believed...He shows me the first lie brick in my tower.  God is not good and cannot be for me.  Come again...it is time. a random word blows loosening the mortar...gently waiting... to be noticed.  Pain can be so loud.  Have you ever noticed that?  I sit there thoughts circling..I go around and around them thinking all over the last weeks..I turn  go pick up a book..what? go pick up a book...

the pain laced lies back down as I stand...which book?  I had several laying there so my hand just went to Streams...heart  racing...He was going to say something and I knew it.  I opened to February 5  and He breathed.

Here are God Breathed Words

Isaiah 52:12  " you shall not go out with haste." ( altar card )

for a couple weeks my wrestling  has been between my orphan mentality and my daughtership.  Pain , the mortar used to lay each one down. Years in the making...built high...to high for my flesh to tear down and hold together..but flesh has controlled and predicted for so long.  You see - I am no longer an orphan...but I live like one.

go pick up a book?  again?  February 11 He breathed.    I had just finished asking Him about a house...I go pick up the same book and He spoke

Here are God Breathed words

Joshua 3:13 { altar card }

as soon as the soles of the feet of the priests...shall rest in the waters...the waters...shall be cut off.

OK really? I posted on Joshua here. He leaves me wanting more of Him.  Something He is speaking to me...

If I don't put my foot in the water where the situation is impossible God cannot stop the waters. I took a brick down and with the sole of my foot... I stepped out of the tower and INTO the truth that GOD does care and wants my/our good.

Here is the lie brick:

God is not good and cannot be for me

Here is God Breathed Words

Exodus 33:14

the LORD ( YHWH) replied, " I will personally go with you, Moses {Tiffini} and I will give you rest-everything will be fine for you."  { altar card }

This is wrestling...this is choice...this is "am I going to choose to be the orphan or am I going to choose to be the daughter of the King ?"

I could feel the heat and energy in His breath over my soul.   I had a choice set before me...I wrestled exhausted.  I ate.  I chewed them up small and His Spirit made them edible for my soul.

My sole was in the water and my soul was a daughter and it cried Abba, Father!

I will leave us with this from Rose Marie Miller.  I think it represents us. women. would you put your name in the blank with me?  { altar card }

" _______________, you act like an orphan...you often live as though the Holy Spirit never came, could never help you live in impossible places and do impossible things.  You act ( or live ) as though there were no Father who loves you....

~ “Path” by Linn Photography ~ posted by acottageinthewoods

I'm still on this journey... thank you from the depths of my heart that you are walking with me...

Do you have lie bricks that you have built up walls with? Do you live as an orphan or a daughter?

This Tuesday I'm resting in the presence of friends @ Finding Heaven...would you come?

Come back tomorrow for Word women Wednesdays...and meet one of my kindred soul sisters Stephanie from The best is yet to be.

She is giving away a copy of Beth Moore's " Get out of that Pit"! So come and join in the linky party and link up any post that

encourages women to keep going in this journey of life.  It is never to late for God to do the impossible.  See you tomorrow:)

Photo Credit - Nantyglo Round Towers , a cottage in the woods